Experiences of Schizophrenia

By nature, light consumes all exposed into its senseless gullet, but most go undisturbed when light comes or goes. In schizophrenia, depression, delusion, and insomnia can pervade, stretching the dark into long nights.

There are periods when the space around me takes on an aura of jagged shapes and sharp, searing colors. I walk around, and the buildings, concrete, green grass, and sky cause a feeling deep in my chest, telling me I don't belong. My surroundings feel like they've been replaced by a replica or an unsettling and uncanny false model. The Earth I'm thrust into is like serenity inverted—and in great disarray.

I'm doomed here as it is to suffer and vacillate in anguish. My body is being pulled apart in a chair that tightens if I rest. A clutter of voices fills my hearing and mind as I sit, struggling against shards pushing around my body, attempting to break free.