Experiences of Schizophrenia

The Experiences of Schizophrenia blogs are a collection of writings that feature a brief story about Living with Schizophrenia, an illustrative Experiences of Schizophrenia entry, and a Note to Self by the author. The blogs here can be strange and esoteric at times.

You are on a monochrome image of a person shielding their eyes from a blinding light entering from a half open door.

Experiences of Schizophrenia: Hallucinations, Hospitals, and Photophobia

Most people are undisturbed when light enters or exits. But depression, delusion, and insomnia become pervasive in photophobia for me. Certain colors of light flare up and envelope my body in a hardening sap. My shoulders shirk, and my arms, neck, and legs feel like they're fixed in a binding.

Jesse Halley

Oct 3, 20254 min read

You are on an image of swirling colors, resembling a mix of paints in muted tones and containing distorted textures

Experiences of Schizophrenia: Schizophrenia in Colors, Shapes, and Sounds

There are periods when the space around me takes on an aura of jagged shapes and sharp, searing colors. I walk around, and the buildings, concrete, green grass, and sky cause a feeling deep in my chest, telling me I don't belong. My surroundings feel like they've been replaced by a replica or an unsettling and uncanny false model. The Earth I'm thrust into is like serenity inverted—and in great disarray.

Jesse Halley

Oct 3, 20254 min read

You are on a photo that features a variety of obscure facial profiles, a couple walking, and miscellaneous people in dark and transparent colors.

Experiences of Schizophrenia: Relationships, Schizophrenia, and Psychosis

I’m destined in this place to suffer and vacillate in anguish. My body is being pulled apart in a chair that tightens if I rest, as a clutter of voices overcomes my hearing. I struggle against what feels like shards pushing around my body, attempting to break free.

Jesse Halley

Oct 3, 20203 min read